Fact Find, Rest and Replenish

Well, I'm okay today, I am moving on.

I found out there is a law on the books that determine a survivor of a spouse that receives a pension is ineligible for survivor's benefits from Social Security in essence.  I mean you you can file, but you will not get any payment, is what the clerk said.  Okay, I didn't know that, actually I had never thought about that, and I guess had I known, I probably would not have changed anything anyway. So going on.

I have determined to rest a bit, not long but to take a breather.  I want to, "smell the roses".  Show my appreciation for  the things, I have just rushed through. Take a walk, breathe, feel the warm air on my skin.  Re-connect to the fitness club, I joined but was always to tired to go. Make that appointment with my new dental office for a cleaning, again something I could only do between 9a.m. until 4p.m. Monday thru Friday. I can again go to the beach in the morning, have coffee, and feel the ocean breeze, meet tourists and listen to their stories from home and here.

Oh for me it is the simple things, the norms that ground me, that make me feel good. I am replenishing my mind, body and soul, through the absence of stress. Negativity is such a robber; it steals spirit, insight why the absence of it alone, I believe rebuilds cells.  Unhampered rest, non-stop cell reproduction, I am slowly rebuilding me.  I am hydrating myself but not only with the intake of water, but renewed spirit, love, and peace, I am putting back.  I was to my core, I must never let myself go this far again.

So, I must call my girlfriend and let her know about survivor's benefits, as we were talking about it, she didn't know how it worked and neither did I. I am going to get up now and literally, "smell the coffee", first cup, and start another beautiful day in paradise.

Thanks for listening, and I want to hear from you.  How is your day?


Deborah "Nanilima" Howell
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Maintenance and Repair of the Soul

I am still cycling in grief, imitating life's acts during this period to get through to better days ahead. I have reached a plateau, I have reached my soul.  It is heavy, bloated, in sentiment old and new, mine and not mine, I have in my soul so much. This is going to take some time to sort through.

At this point I am letting a lot of things go, I must let it go, in order to free my soul, to cleanse it. Clear my soul of all prior and present unkind acts, I've done and to those done unto me, release my soul of all attachments and chains of those sentiments, I've held there so long.. I shall now wash my soul, lighten it, let go and let God.  Hold in my soul, only mercy, love, and contentedness. Seek no malice, hold no pain, nor whys.  Know in my heart, I am in preparation for a greater good!

I am moving on, I have to.  You can join me, if you are in a place, that is painful for you, if you are grieving for the loss of a loved one, a broken heart, or family.  Open your heart, it is heavy now, look deeper into your soul.  Take this time for maintenance and repair.  Straighten the contents of your soul, let go of anything you find that should not be there, find the things you want there, put those things there.  Release, release, what you find you will have left will be peace and serenity.  My spirit has been lifted today, for I know I am on the right path.

I want to thank you for allowing me to come to terms with many things in my life through writing.


Deborah "Nanilima" Howell
Its Hawaiian


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Decollatage and NeriumAD

Decollatage and NeriumAD there is a connection.  Let me tell you how!

Decollatage is a very delicate area of a woman's body.  It is an extension of the face and neck.  The delicacy is the sensitiveness of the skin in this area.  Therefore products, moisturizers, and make-up used on the face, can and should also be used on the neck and decollatage, for conformity as well as evenness of surface texture of skin.  The object here is a beautiful flowing of skin through-out these three key areas.

NeriumAD Age-defying skincare treatment is driven to dramatically reduce the appearance of:

•  fine lines and wrinkles
• uneven skin texture
• enlarged pores
• aging or sun-damaged skin
• age-spots and minor skin discolorations                                                                                             

This is true of the face, neck and decollatage area.  How marvelous is that?  And I will let you in on a "little" secret.  Anywhere you want to see the benefits of NeriumAD; use it there. I do. Yes, I want the benefits, of using NeriumAD everywhere, over my whole body.

Decollatage is being seen more today, and in more ways, gracefully in the morning tastefully done, and sensuously in the evening.  So with this kind of exposure can we really afford not to take as well care to this area as with our faces?

Faces are remembered, but decollatage is never forgotten!

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Deborah "Nanilima" Howell

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A Door Closed Today

I am glad it did and when it closed, I  exhaled!

I knew it was coming; I think if we look back at things, people, and the events leading up to a door closing we know.  I did. I have always been a firm believer though when one door closes, another door opens.

So, I am not anguished, there is no remorse, that door is closed, so be it.  I celebrate my freedom!

Free from the sullen and sour faces, free from the unforgiving and never "excuse me" belching, free from the filthy bathrooms, the uncharacteristic manners of people entering rooms occupied by others, never saying, hello, how are you or good morning, they go to the copier, get a copy, or to pick up mail from the bin, then turn around and walk out of the room; as if no one were there; as if they'd walked into an empty room.

I tried my best, I gave my all, I wanted so badly for things to done neatly, orderly, just trying to maintain alphabetized lists drew fire from the dragons of hell! And lest I forget, inter-departmental lying, and as well outer-departmental lying.  These figures are conjured up to make a point; they are faceless, nameless, probably breathless but their perspective undaunted and on target.  You don't know who you are facing, so therefore no need in responding against these "ghosts"!

You are relieved but now, I want to let you know about the ...... I don't think so, I am no longer required to listen to anything being said by this group.  Thank you.  By the way you can always play a movie for your two new managers to get "exit strategy" experience.

But I think as this door was closing what took the cake was a comment, something along the lines of what will you say about us?

So for any of you out there facing a closed door, walk out that door on faith, so many doors will open for you, better doors you'll see, as you deserve so much better! I do.

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Deborah "Nanilima" Howell
Its Hawaiian

Well, I Said It Today

Well, I said it today.  It was not easy, I didn't say it loudly, and I didn't look the cashier behind the glass in the eye when I stuttered it.  Remember, I mentioned I was going to the movies today, a movie/mall day of sorts.   I saw the movie, I Wish.  Good movie recommend you see it too. 

But as I was looking at the wall at the different costs, I already knew if you go before 4:00p.m. the cost is $8.00.  But what, I hadn't noticed before was Seniors age 60; pay $7.50.  I thought it over quickly, the cashier, I didn't know him, the difference of 50 cents, having to say, "I am a Senior", Oh, I'm so vain. I'm old. Hurry, say it! I said it!  As a result of my revelation I received $2.50 cents change from my ten and my ticket.  I smiled and sashayed into the theater doors.  

It didn't hurt to say it, not really.  I mean don't get me wrong, I am very grateful to be alive at sixty, and seemingly well, a few aches and pains here and there, but nothing major.  But it is giving up the essence of youth, and the sexiness that goes with it. Throbbing, sensuous, my goodness "hot".  Giving up those labels, those thoughts of me in my head.

And don't forget friends, I have NeriumAD Age-Defying Skincare Treatment and I love this product because of what it does to my skin. Third-party clinical trials show that NeriumAD dramatically reduces the appearance of:

• Fine Lines and Wrinkles
• Uneven Skin Texture
• Skin discolorations or Age Spots
• Enlarged Pores
• Aging or Sun Damaged Skin

You can have beautiful, radiant, youthful looking skin too, come to my website, view the before and after pictures and watch the video.  You can order online, and have NeriumAD delivered to your doorstep. 

So, I am not ready yet, I want to be still young, still claim innocence, albeit, to a few things. I am not ready to be categorized as, "Senior".  There is nothing senior about me yet! Sixty is the new fifty, I'm okay with that, I can handle that.   With that I can still shop for my demure undies, with that, I can still powder up my translucent glitter powder and order or accept a tall glass of wine or a Hennessy neat.

But here is the kicker, I was checking my email and saw a headline Jane Fonda at 74 wows 'em, in a red glitter dress, even taking the spotlight from a 30 year old!

Basically, just call me Jane!

I welcome comments.  I want to hear from you, tell me how you feel.

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Deborah "Nanilima" Howell
Its Hawaiian

Movie, Mall Day Today

Oh today is movie/mall day for me.  If I miss the movie there is always the mall walk.  I am feeling much better today.  I volunteered 4 hours yesterday for a good cause.  I stood up, shook a net and angled for donations to School Tools.  School Tools donates school supplies to parents that are otherwise unable to do so, for their school-aged children. 

I remember way back when I was in elementary school, our list was simple a notebook, folders, erasers, paper and pens, that was it.  Now, oh it is much, much more that is needed, actually required to begin the school year. Children need these tools of course, and by not having the tools that are required puts a student at a disadvantage and this child may also suffer a social stigma among his classmates for not having stated supplies.  

 If you are a parent, of an elementary school aged child I'm sure you've seen the list.  With the cutbacks in education and funding to our schools, we have to step in and help as these children are our future.  And imagine if you have more that one child in the school system, those are additional lists to fill.  So, I am happy, I did something to help a great cause.

I actually think some of my pain went away yesterday, just a tidbit.  It is remarkable how positive actions bring about positive responses.  If you are feeling not to swell about something or just don't feel well yourself, try doing something for someone, or some good cause.  I promise you'll feel better too, just like I did!

Do you know a parent(s) of school aged children you can assist with the donation of items on "the list"?

Feel good today!

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Adversity Makes Me Stronger

Adversity makes me stronger! I don't know it probably was in the way I was raised, something that my parents instilled in me. They probably knew I would face some adversity in my life and they wanted me to be prepared even if they were not here on earth in the physical sense to guide me; they wanted me to be able to handle it.  Parents, you did a good job!  Anyways for sure I do not run from adversity, it just makes me stronger; makes me want to stick around longer, makes me feel I cannot quit, I know you get the idea!

But not my co-workers, they don't understand, that treating me badly, keeping me out of your group, not offering me kindness, not saying good night or good morning, not holding a door open or just a simple smile will not make me grab my coat and hat and find the nearest exit; but it makes me dig in deeper, get comfortable and stay!

Perhaps they've never heard you attract more bees with honey, you can get what you want quicker by being nice. I mean in general most situations just work out to the benefit of all involved by just being nice about it.

I learned long ago, there are things that you cannot change, you do not have the power to change, you do not worry yourself with that thing, or element of your life, you let go and Let God.  

I tell you, there is nothing, in this world, and for that matter out of this world too, that God cannot and will not change for you, if you have faith in Him. Therefore. I am a lot to be reckoned with, on one hand, I do not fear adversity and on the other I have faith in God!

I support you; I am supported!

Hello, hello!

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Deborah "Nanilima" Howell

Its Hawaiian